Ahhhhhhhhh! This server just isn't working for me lately. I can't log on 80% of the time. So, my apologies folks.

Anyhoo, things are on track for the most part. I've been focusing on eating as many fruits and veggies as possible. Drinking zero diet sodas and loading up on water. Seems to be working. I even treated myself to an old fashioned coca cola this evening after my run! That diet stuff is poisonous. One of my clients gave me a cliffs notes verson of what aspartame can do to you and that was enough for me. *shiver*

Still training for my Thanksgiving Day marathon! I ran 5 miles today. I was supposed to run 10 miles this weekend for my long run and I woke up Saturday with a migraine. It screwed up my whole weekend and I wasn't able to run more than 3 miles on Sunday. Imagine having a migraine and then bouncing around. My head felt like it was going to explode. So I decided to make an executive decision and skip that long run. :) This week is a step back to just a 7 miler on Sat or Sun. Now, the trick is that I'm going out of town for a doula convention in Nashville. So, I'm going to have to work it in somehow. I'm determined to do it! I'm so excited about being in a hotel room alone! LOL I mean, I'll be busy all day, but by God I'll be ordering room service and sleeping snuggly all by myself Thursday through Sunday. Ahhhh........... I saw on the hotel's website that they have a gym. If worse come to worse I'll do a very boring 7 miles on the treadmill. Or I can wake up extra early and go run outside before my 8am start up time for convention. We'll see...

So, tonight I had some Trader Joe's chocolate soy nuts. I'm thinking...5g fiber, soy....can't be that bad. 5 points for 1/4 cup! I at least had 1/2 a cup. 10 stinkin' points! Thanks you Jesus for flexies! Thank you Jesus that I'm also training for a marathon and earning a mad amount of acitivity points per week. Phew!

I can't wait for Fall. Leaves changing, heat letting up, my birthday (October 25!!!!) and then my marathon in November. Lots going on...

Here's my tracker for today. Not the best day, but still...

Breakfast:
Frosted Wheats and skim: 4 pts
Mocha: 3 pts

Lunch:
Chicken salad sandwich on wheat: 5 pts
Honeydew melon: 1 pts

Dinner:
Chick-fil-A sandwich: 7 pts
coke: 3 pts

Run: 5 miles=5 APs

Snack:
Pretzels: 2 pts
Coke (too much coke, I know): 4 pts
Chocolate soy nuts: 10 pts (not worth it)

Been having blog trouble again! Couldn't log on until today.

So, Sunday I went to the river trail to do my "long run" per my marathon training schedule. I ran 9 miles!!!! That's the longest I've run yet!!! I was so proud of myself. I called Ed right away and told him. I had a smile on my face the rest of the day. Then I crashed that night. LOL

I took the kids to the YMCA today. Ran 3 miles on the treadmill. Then we ran errands. I'm making dinner for a neighbor who had her baby 2 weeks ago. They don't really have any help, so Karyn (my other neighbor) and I took charge! We're making them one hot meal and one meal to freeze, twice this week. THEN I'm off to Cumming (an hour away from my home) to have a prenatal meeting with a client due in Sept. Then I'm coming home and sleeping! I've got to move my prenatal meetings to day time only. These nights are killing me. I just joined a fabulous doula group call Labor of Love. Truly amazing women! Here's the site: laboroflove.org. I'm listed under the "meet us" link. :)

Tracker so far:

Breakfast:
Ed brought me a mocha (sweet) 3 pts

Lunch:
Subway Turkey: 6 pts
Baked Lays: 3 pts

Snack:
Finish mocha (it was a venti) : 3 pts
Apple: 1 pt

Dinner:
Probably a Lean Cuisine with a Spinach salad: roughly 8-9 points

Total: 24 pts
APs earned: 3 pts

OH my God! I've been trying to write a post all week and my blogger account was messing up. Thanks goodness it worked tonight. :)

Well, been trucking away trying to eat my best. I've had an unusually busy week, so I was unable to eat totally OP and maintain my running schedule. I haven't run in 3 days and tomorrow I'm supposed to run a 9 miler! I hope I do well. I'm waking up early for that one. I'm NOT running in the awful heat. No way.

I feel bloated. I think Aunt Flo is due any minute now. Good times..... I've been researching raw food diets. I know what you're thinking....Jen, dear, do not switch things up again! I'm not, don't worry. I'm just trying to expand my knowledge about food and how it works with your body so that making healthier choices will be more "educated" than "I know I should, but..." I've always been awful about really eating fruits and veggies and drinking enough water. I just never want to give up the points for fruit, ya know? And wouldn't a cafe mocha be yummier than water? That's another thing: my caffiene intake is horrendous. And it's works against my already constant dehydrated state. And throw running into the mix and then you can see where it would be wise for me to make higher goals as far as fruits and veggies and water. ;)

Here's my tracker:

Breakfast:
Honeydew melon-1
cous cous- 3
olive oil-1

Lunch:
1/2 cup chicken noodle soup-2

Dinner:
1/2 Enchilada-5
chips/salsa-4
1/2 Chile Relleno-4

Total: 19.5 points

Oh my time has passed!

Well, I'm back OP. I got up to 147 lbs and realized that intuitive eating just doesn't work for me. I said I'd give it 3 weeks and I did and I was officially up. I've been OP for 4 days now and I feel much better. Back down to 143. Hopefully back to my 140 comfort zone.

My mom is coming in town today. That usually presents an obstacle because they like to eat out, so it takes last minute planning for me. I used most of my Flex already this week. Last night I was desparate to get out and had two Cosmos and a crab cake! My friend Monica and I split the appetizer and it was the perfect amount. Delish! I also ran 4 miles! Oh, and Sunday I ran 7 miles. My highest mileage yet!!! I'm trying my best to follow the marathon training schedule. Today is just a 3 miler, thank God.

I'll be writing in quick spurts to check in and stay accountable while my mom is in town. SO, keep watch!

Hey all! Amelia is doing much better! Thanks for the inquiries. Poor girl. I took her to the pediatrician yesterday they dressed the wound in butterfly bandages and said it was nasty, but should be ok. She seems have no idea it's there.

I've been keeping up with my running schedule. Logged 3 miles last night after dinner. Running another 3 or 4 today. Last night's run was not all that great. I didn't feel "light" and I think I ran too soon after dinner. I felt sluggish and ran sluggish. But I finished the mileage! Then I went to "mom's night" at a friends house where we drank wine and talked. Halfway through we all decided we wanted authentic Mexican cheese dip, chips and salsa- so we picked some up! It hit the spot, but I totally overate. Shamefully overate. And I paid for it. I felt really yucky. I had a stomach ache when I went to bed. :( I'm really trying to learn this "full" feeling. My friend who has successfully lost and maintained with intuitive eating said I should always stop eating on the first "I think I'm full" thought. If you have to stop and think whether or not you're full, you probably are. That's where I tend to fall short. I keep eating while I ponder: Am I full? lol

I found and cool site that basically outlines what I'd like to become habit: http://www.intuitiveeating.com/

Great tips.

I'll be on later. I'l update with my tracker

So, right after I wrote the last post I got the kids and started to leave when I heard Amelia crying in the kitchen. She had sliced her leg on a piece of glass that had broken from a glass slipping out of the dishwasher earlier in the day. I thought I had swept up all the pieces, but I didn't. :( It's a pretty bad cut. I had a friend who is a nurse come look at it and tell me if I needed to go to the ER or not. She said it was a bad cut, but not ER worthy. She suggested I take Amelia to the pediatrician tomorrow morning and see what they say. She might need an antibiotic. Ugh. Poor girl. She can't catch a break. Last week she had two injuries. One where she busted her head on the kitchen island and another where she busted her lip. She just started walking and she is falling all over the place. Fischer was never like this. He was so steady and fell so gracefully. Amelia just plows into everything. I'm sure people see her bruises and cuts and wants to call CPS on me! My poor baby...

So here's me as a Simpson's character. LOL I went to the Simpson's movie site and created my character. I thought it was funny. :)

So, making the cookies the other night was probably not the best idea. I didn't go hugely over board, but I also grabbed one any time I could and ate it. I made so many that I had enough to give 3 plates away to neighbors and still have some in my kitchen, calling my name every hour. Luckily I sent the last of them with Ed to his parents. Phew! But aren't they beautiful??


Ran 3 miles yesterday. Going to Total Body class at the Y in 5 minutes. Just wanted to check in. I'll post more later!

Caring for two children that are going through two different difficult and needed stages is enough to make me voluntarily pull my other big toe nail off. *sigh*

Yesterday was really rough with the kids. I don't know what it was, but someone was either peeing or crying or screaming or hurting the other one or hungry or tired or you name it. Ed and I were so irritated we both looked at each other like we weren't going to survive the day. It definitely affected my eating habits. I was fine until night (of course) and then I bascially ate a full dinner after "snacking" at the childbirth class I was attending for my continuing education doula requirements. So, basically I had peach pie, some apple slices in caramel dip, some bread with creaming, veggie spread and THEN I come home and make a sandwich and chips. It was a bad moment. But, I'm ok. I woke up and ate well today. Right now I've prepared dinner that's in the oven finishing and even prepared tomorrow night's dinner. It's a stew that is to DIE for that you let sit over night and then cook 5 hours in the oven tomorrow. *drool* I'm not particulary hungry right now. So if Ed and Fischer get home soon and are hungry, I'll just join them, but won't eat until I'm ready. I'm determined to make this a habit, despite what the clock says or what the rest of the family is doing.

I'd like to get a run in after dinner. I missed my long run on Saturday due to Aunt Flo cramps. :( But, since I found out I'm ahead of schedule by a week for the marathon training, I could let this week slide and begin today. Sometimes life deals you a break right when you need it.

Well, I'm not sure what the heck my scale is doing. Last I checked I was 140 lbs. Then today I was 142 and some change.!!? This is sotra of typical with my period, so I'm going to give myself some time to regulate. I can tell I've been retaining water like crazy. I'm so bloated and icky. My runs have been sluggish. I think when it's all said and done, I can live with teetering b/w 139 lbs and 142ish lbs. I feel good at that weight. I've always wanted to be 135 lbs. Just....because. But the more I've been thinking about it, the more I realize that 5 more lbs is not going to magically make me better. I'm healthy, I'm fit and I enjoy my body and my clothes. I think I just wanted the comfort of knowing I had 5 lbs to work with if I slipped up. If I was 135 lbs, then if I had a bad week, I'd still be under 140lbs. Does that make sense? It was a number/mind game.

Who knows? I might still reach 135 lbs. Especially with all this training, but I think it's important for me to embrace where I'm at now. I have to live in the moment with food, weight, and life. It's the only way I can really survive it all. :)

Here's my tracker:

Breakfast:
Kashi granola bar
Coffee with cream and splenda
Nectarine

Lunch:
Cup of Vegetarian Chile
1/2 avacado, sliced
1/2 tomatoe, sliced

Snack:
Mocha
Sweet potato chips

Dinner:
Stack-A-Roll (http://www.yumyum.com/recipe.htm?ID=7528)
Spaghetti Squash

I really want to make the Neimen-Marcu $250 cookie recipe tonight. But I know I'll cave if I'm not hungry enough to actually eat some. So, maybe if I get some hunger cues after running, I'll start whipping them up! I LOVE those cookies!

It's so freaking hot out! I live in Atlanta and the humidity is horrendous! Which, makes me earn extra points because yesterday I loaded both kids up in the double jogger and ran 3 miles on a river trail! I'm so hot... I've been doing well on the intuitive eating front. I did have a little love affair with the vanilla wafers just now, but I'm determined not to eat again until I'm truly hungry. For now I'm sipping on coffee and water and getting cozy with my laptop. Amelia is taking a long nap and exhausted from her vaccinations this morning and our park visit after lunch. Fischer and I are snuggling on the couch and watching some good ol' fashioned cartoons! After Amelia wakes up, I'm off to the YMCA to run 4 miles. I can't do the jogger and heat again today. Might as well take advantage of the free childcare while I can!

After the Y I have to come back home, shower, and go to a client's house for a consultation. Then back home for poker night! Ed and I are learning how to be good poker players. I want to make something yummy for snacks. Not sure what though..

Here's today's tracker:

Breakfast:
Oatmeal with flaxseeds with bluberries
Nectarine

Lunch:
Chick-fil-A sandwich
1/2 serving of fries
diet coke

Snack:
Too many vanilla wafers :(

Dinner:
We'll see. It's poker night, so I'm sure it will be "snacky." I'm going to eat some veggies at some point. I realized I haven't gotten in some consistent veggies lately.

Have you ever had days that made your blood pressure spike before 9am? Yeah, that was me today. I had a lot to do today and hit the floor running, trying to be timely and organized. To do list: Get kids up, dressed, and fed. Drop off at church for babysitting fundraiser. Eat brunch with my friends. Pick kids up. Go to store to get stuff to make "Meals on Wheels" for two couples that just had babies in our church. Drop some relaxation CD's back to my client's house. Come home, make meals. Drive meals to respective houses. Get back in time for Ed to go to the Braves Game. Phew!

Got kids up (or rather, they got me up) and we made a healthy breakfast. Got them dressed (which for some reason takes FOREVER with two). Headed out the door to drop them off at our church's babysitting fundraiser. Got them buckled in and ready to go. Car won't start. Battery is dead. Mental note: don't let Fischer play in the car for fun anymore. It's hot, really hot. And humid. I'm sweating like I just ran 3 miles and I haven't gone anywhere. Luckily my friend Margo picked us up in her minivan without much fanfare. We dropped the kids off and ate brunch. Good times. Since my car was still sitting in my driveway, my good friend drove me to the store and then to my client's house so that I could mark that off my list. I got home, cooked, then drove food around. Got home, cooked dinner for my family. Ate. Ed left. The kids and I played checkers in my bedroom for an hour. I just got them to bed. And now I'm in a vegetative state in my bed. I feel like I've taken a painkiller. I'm so tired and can't move. I was supposed to run 3 miles for my marathon training today. Unfortunately there was no time. Unless I was going to get up at 6am- which was NOT going to happen since my children tag teamed me last night with wet diapers and paci retrievals.

Ed is going out of town tomorrow. So I'm going to have to just do my three miles with the kids in the jogger. The earlier I get out, the better. For some reason mornings are so hard to me to get motivated to run. Ya know those clips of people still in the middle of the screen and other people around them are moving in hyper speed and all blurry? I feel that way in the morning with my kids. It takes me a while to snap out of it. But, I'll manage it. I always do.

Did well on the eating front. I'm thinking less and less about food, which is good. I'm enoying tasty treats, but not going overboard.

Here's my tracker:

Breakfast:
All Bran Cereal
Skim milk

Lunch:
The Flying Biscuit Breakfast: 2 eggs, 2 chicken sausage patties, 1 whole wheat biscuit and grits. I ate all but one patty and half my biscuit.

Snack:
Starbucks- Doube tall, non fat, no whip, sugar free Cinnamon Dulce Latte

Dinner:
Veg All Cassarole (http://tinyurl.com/24putw)
Broccoli Salad (http://tinyurl.com/2cohr8)

Day Two of eating intuitively and the scale is showing a loss! I feel good. I think I may have overeaten slightly at dinner. It was rice and it hit me late in the game. But, it's all part process. Saturday I forgot to brag that I ran 6 miles! And my toe was totally cool with it. LOL I'm doing this marathon training schedule: http://www.halhigdon.com/marathon/novices.html. I'm trying to follow it pretty closely. Today is a rest day. :)

Here's my tracker for today:

1/2 bagel with lite cream cheese
Mocha

A couple bites of Amelia's PB&J

Cup of Chile
Saltienes
1 dallup of ff plain yogurt (instead of sour cream)

1 popsicle

1 1/2 cups brown rice
peas
bbq sauce (I know it's weird- I like it all mixed together)

And I'm full!

Tomorrow should be fun. My church is having a fundraiser for an African trip. They're watching the kiddos tomorrow from 11-2pm! I'm going to meet some friends and we're eating again at the Flying Biscuit. LOVE that place.

Ok, I had a revelation last night. For months now I've felt cornered in by limitations with my food. Whether it was points or certain foods I had to avoid- I felt boxed in and I think it has something to do with my desire to binge. I've been reading a book called "Lose It For Life" and I have to say it's "reading my mail." Basically it encourages intuitive eating and healthy choices. There are no "rules." It isn't a diet, it's more like a philosophy. They even says it's "doable" with Weight Watchers. I was particualary hit by the "emotional hunger" they talk about. How to distinguish physical hunger from emotional hunger. The more I read, the more I felt like this book was describing what I've been struggling with the last few months. While they say you can apply this mindset with any diet, they do add that being on a "diet" only reenforces the binge mentality. Which makes sense. And so the more and more I'm reading this, the more and more I feel like I'm cheating on WWs. LOL And while I credit WWs with helping me lose the bulk of my weight, I feel like I need a fresh approach. I need to work on living this out and not just adhering to rules. So, I talked to Ed about it and told him my fears of going off WWs and doing this and how I was worried I was just trying to find another "magic pill," yada, yada, yada. He actually thought it was a good idea. He knows me well and said that I get in ruts when I'm not able to change things up. And right now I'm definitely in a rut. I feel like my whole day is dominated by what I'm going to eat, where I can eat and how much I can eat. But what I really desire is freedom from this. I want the freedom to stop thinking about food. I want the freedom to eat anything I want (within reason) and just stop when I'm full. And this is basically what Lose It For Life is promoting. There are no gimicks or food guides, no counting or "off limit" foods, but simply teaching how to eat normally and in moderation. And that's really what we all need to learn.

So, I'm giving it a try. I'm doing it for 3 weeks and I'm just going to see how it works. If I feel like it's not working or I gain- I'm back on WWs. But, I think I owe it to myself to find something that works for ME. Afterall, this weightloss thing is a foward journey where I have to adapt to what works. So, here I go!

The family went to Flying Biscuit this morning for breakfast. It was so nice. I felt so free and had zero stress or guilt about ordering what I wanted. It was such a nice feeling. And I listened to when I felt full and quit eating. There was half my food still on my plate, but I really was content.

Anyway, here's my tracker so far:

Flying Biscuit Breakfast Plate: 2 eggs, 1 wheat biscuit, apple butter, chicken sausage and grits. I had half of everything. :)

Mocha from Starbucks

Chicken, spinach and goat cheese quesadilla (1/2, 1 tortilla) Left about a 1/4 of it on my plate because I was full. IT WAS GOOD!

I'll update with the rest of the day later. :)

So, if I'm missing in action for a few days, you can safely assume I'm up to no good. I had an emotionally hard week last week and couldn't bring myself to eat at all. I got on the scale at one point and was 139 lbs. And then last Sunday I felt better and started to eat again. I think the starving and then eating screwed up my metabolism. I got on the scale this morning and it was 144! I really suck at this maintainance thing. *sigh* Then last night we had some people over for poker and I had my "game plan" of fat free popcorn and diet ginger ale to snack on. I snacked on that and then someone came that hadn't eaten dinner, so they ordered a pizza. I had no feeling of hunger or even wanting pizza until it came and I ate 2 PIECES!!! WTH??? It's like I have the momentary lapses where I eat and don't think. It made me feel really awful. I get so mad at myself and then feel like I'm falling off the wagon. You know those studies your read where people lose a bunch of weight but aren't able to keep it off and gain it all back and then some? I'm terrified that'll be me. So everytime I slip up, I fall into that mind set of feeling out of control and slipping back into my old self. Like I'm simply a statistic.

I'm due for my period in a couple days, which could explain the icky bloating and gain, but it certainly doesn't explain all of it. I know I need to once again reign myself in and just start fresh. I'm such a numbers person. If they scale says I've gain, then I eat like I want to gain. If it says I've lost, I'll stay OP rather effortlessly. One thing I'm learning is to not rely souly on the scale. But rather how I feel. If I eat like butt, well then I'll feel like butt. If I eat well, I'll feel better, have more energy and have a good outlook on everything. So why would I choose to eat awful when I don't have to? That, my friends, is the biggest mystery of all.

Today has been good. I've sort of experimented with Core again. Mainly because I'm tired of feeling so bloated and on Core I felt better- even though I was lacking my staple endulgences.

Here's my tracker so far:

Breakfast:
All Bran cereal
Skim milk
1 sliced up banana

Lunch:
Chicken Salad from Pangea. It come with carrots, fresh ginger, fresh, roasted veggies and a yummy vinegarette.

Snack:
Nf, sf Latte

Dinner:
I'll probably make some vegetarian chile with avacado and Fage yogurt to go with. Oh- and a fresh tomato from my garden!

I can do this.... I know I can.

Doing much better. I was in a funk and was having a hard time even eating. I didn't really count points at all. Which, looking back was probably a good thing. I needed a break. My weight has stayed put. Today is Monday and a new week.

I'm off to the gym for my first attempt at fitness again since my toe drama. Body sculpting. I'm looking forward to it. Then, we're going out to dinner with some friends to a pizza place. I've got lots of points left so I'll get a salad and pizza. :)

Here's my tracker:

Skipped breakfast (too busy)

TJ's Mid East Feast (pre prackaged thing with pita, hummus, tabouli, and some other dip thingy)= 9pts

1 slice pizza=7 pts
1 salad=5 pt


That leaves 3 pts to have a treat later.

I'm in a rut. Surprsingly, it's not a weight related rut. I'm down to 139 again according to my scale. I think I'm in a life rut. Food is still an all dominately thing in my life. But I kinda had this revelation two days ago that there is something that is causing this to happen. There is some whole I'm trying to fill. And so the last two days I've actually had a hard time eating. I've had a horrible stomach ache. I don't know if it's nerve related or purely physcial. I just feel unrooted and over everything. I'm tired of counting points, I'm tired of wanting to run and not being able too (damn toe), I'm tired of cooking, I'm tired of thinking, I'm tired of being tired. *sigh*

I have this need to get in the car and just keep driving. Maybe I'm having a mid life crisis at 29. ? I read little pieces of "The Five Love Languages For Kids" at Barnes&Nobles a couple weeks ago and was really excited to give back to my kids what they're specific love language is. For Fischer it's "quality time." But then I thought: what kid doesn't want quality time? So I've been playing with him on the floor. Making lots of eye contact, having undistracted conversations with him, doing puzzles, etc. And it occured to me that I never got that as a child. I know my parents did the best they could. But I don't remember having consistent, long, undistracted attention. They worked full time. I was always in sports and had a very busy life. But when things slowed down, I was anxious. I do remember going to food in those moments. Eating comforted me. Made me feel full and loved. I also remember everyone telling me to eat. I was an athlete and burned everything I ate up. I remember hearing my mom say: "She eats all the time and doesn't gain an oz." a lot. And I think I just prided myself on that through highschool. I specifically remember eating an entire pizza in front of my friends just to prove I could eat a ton. I was this toned, thin, size 2-4 girl that ate like a football player. Then around my senior year I began to gain a little. It freaked me out. By college I had put on 30 ish pounds. It never really occurred to me to diet until my sophmore year in college. Enter Atkins diet.... Lost 20 lbs. Got married. Enter Vegan diet. Lost 20 lbs. Got pregnant. Gain 65 lbs. Continue eating like a football player. Lose some of the weight, but not all. Get pregnant again. Eat like a football player. And then start this blog and join Weigh Watchers. And here I am. I lost all my weight, feel good. Back down to highschool size (kinda) and yet here I am more bewildered and confused about food than ever.

I just wish for one day I could not think about food and what to eat. I wish I was born with that chromosome that says: "Hey, I'm hungry, I'll eat and then stop when I'm full!" What a concept. You'd think with all the technology in the worlds that they would have discovered the "secret" to food related issues. But, then again, the truth is there isn't a secret. It's either a thorn in your side the rest of your life, or it isn't. I, obviously, fit into the former.

I almost didn't post because I feel so weird lately. But I figure, this is real and this is life, no sense in pretending. To help lighten things up, I'll post a pic of my friend and I dancing in my living room the other night. That made me happy. :)

Well, I'm feeling a bit better. My "nubbin" is feeling ok and the pressure is starting to decrease. I'm really bummed that I can't be as active as I want to. I think I'm going to get some pilates dvd's and focus on my core while my toes are healing. :)

So I weighed in this morning at WWs. 139.6 lbs. My leader pulled me aside and said: "Look Jen, you look great. You're well within the range of what is healthy for your height. How about we call 140 lbs your goal and you can lose more if you want, but that way you don't have to keep paying us." I was like: "OKAY!" So, my plan for tonight is to get all dressed up and celebrate my goal weight at my night meeting. I'm going to print out my "big" pictures so that I can show how far I've come. Then I just need to weigh in at or within 2 lbs of 140 lbs for 6 weeks and I am officially a lifetimer!!!

Yipeeee!

Here's my tracker so far:

WW muffin: 3 pts
Mocha: 3 pts

Left over homemade Chicken-Curry-Coconut Soup: 5 pts
2 slices sourdough bread: 4 pts

I have 7 pts left for supper. I'm going to pick up something after my weigh in. I might splurge with flexies and get a big burrito from Willy's. I might not. We'll see what I feel like....

Today started off fun. I got a sitter for the kids and planned to spend the whole day garage sale hunting with my friend. Well I chose not to take my friend's advice and was moving some furniture with flip flops on instead of shoes. By some freakish turn of events, furniture ended up ripping off my big toe nail!!! OUCH! MEGA OUCH! Emergency room OUCH! It was awful. I called my friend whose husband is a Doctor. He's an angel and saw me at his house. He gave me a local shot for the pain in my toe (I don't know what hurt worse: the toe or the shot). After a minute my toe was better. Well enough to attempt to bandage it and salvage the toe nail bed by putting the nail back on. I was having visions of having a "nubbin" the rest of my life. Just painting the skin to make it match.

Long story short, I'm on crutches and vicodin. I had no idea breaking a nail would be so dramatic.... Unfortunately this means I can't run the Peachtree Road Race next Wednesday. I cried and cried. I've been working towards this for months. It really upset me. :(

Anyway, I do not recommend breaking your big toe nail off. It brings on more baggage than you'd think.

*sob*

Well, the day is stirring with possibilities. I'm sipping my coffee that I've had to warm up twice due to children summoning me all over the house. It would be ideal to sit on my couch and read my new book that I got, but somehow that is impossible with the little ones. What to do today.... Usually I go to playgroup at the park, but it's hot. Too hot. Then I was thinking of taking the kids to the YMCA pool, but somehow the idea of me going solo with both my kids at a pool makes me panic. But, the idea of being locked up in my house also makes me panic. LOL Perhaps I should stop overanalyzing what I should do and just do it!

Last night I met up with my best friend (and new business partner) to paint and stage our antique booth. Yes, that's right, I'm officially in the antique business! There's a cool place in East Atlanta Village called East Atlanta Art and Antique Bazaar (http://www.eastatlantavillage.net/east_atlanta_art_and_antique_bazaar.phtml). They basically rent out booths on a monthly basis for people to sell their antique/art finds. It's a cool antique place with a folky flare. Monica (bff) and I have been talking about starting our own business for years now. We both love the "art" of finding rejected furniture, fixing it up and living with it. We're both artsy and have an eye for staging and designing rooms. So, this seems right up our ally. We're sort of holding our breath and jumping into this new "business." Anyhoo, we're stepping it up a notch and learning to spot out anitques via garage sales. Our first, official hunt will be this weekend. We'll be hitting roughly 20 garage sales (we've already plotted it out) on Friday and Sat. Phew!

So that's what I'm up to. I think staying busy really helps me stay OP. I'm less likely to graze and can usually find something WW friendly while out and about. I know people always says it's hard to eat out and stay OP, but that's not the case for me. Find me a Subway or Chick-fil-A and I'm golden.

Well, I'm planning on earning some APs today. Whether it through running or taking a workout class, I'll do it. I have a meeting with a doula client tonight, so I need to get the exercise in before then! :)

Today was rather uneventful. Dentist appointment at 8:45am. Then met some friends at the park to let our kids play. Ed called and wanted to meet us for lunch so we all went to Chick-Fil-A. I could eat there every day. I love that place. I got a Chick-Fil-A sandwich (the good fried kind) for 9 pts. Totally worth it. Luckily I made it to a Total Body class at the Y that is worth 4 APs. Man, that woman kicks your butt!

So, I've decided that I'm going to stop feeling guilty about indulgences. As long as I have the points, I can have it. I think the guilt feelings lead to binging. Just one of my working theories... Anyhoo, I'm going to use flex like I used my flex when I started this whole weightloss thing. :) So after dinner tonight I had a big bowl of Breyer's Mint Chocolate Chip icecream. I LOVE that icecream. I've been craving it for a while and it's been so hot outside so I treated myself. 12 pts. Again, totally worth it. :)

Here's my tracker (It's been an indulgent day with no fruits and veggies, so don't judge me! LOL)

grande mocha 4 pts
sandwich: 9 pts
brownie: 1 pt (sample bite)
ww cake: 1 pt
chips: 6 pt
Cheese dip: 4 pts
icecream: 12 pts

Total: 37 pts
APs: 4pts
Used: 33 pts

11 Flex Used

Today I woke up at 8:15am. Was out the door with both kids by 8:30. Went to Starbucks, sat and had a discussion with Fischer about rainbows. The kids had vanilla milk and I had my mocha. It was a sweet moment. But it only last for a second and then Amelia wanted to get into things. Off to the park! We got to the park and I put the kids in the double jogger. I ran the loop of the park once with the kids (2 miles) and then we played. Fischer and I played tag and Amelia and I played "Mom makes sure I don't fall to my death off the slide." Good times...

Then to weigh in..... I'm down! .4 lbs! 140 lbs. I'm slowly creeping back down. It might take me a whole year, but by God I'm going to be 135 lbs! LOL I will! Couldn't stay for my meeting- my kids were kinda spastic and I didn't want to subject the other meeting goers to that. So we hopped in the car and I cruised to R.E.I. looking for this stroller: http://tinyurl.com/2fkhkx. The Mountain Buggy Urban! I wanted to actually see it and try it out. Unfortunately they didn't carry it. :( I'm trying to be more flexible in my running and taking the kids with me would be much easier on my family than me always needing that hour to run. Problem is, when you're really running, you need a sturdy, but easy gliding stroller. You also need it slim enough to get by on city sidewalks. My current one is not. I have to get off and on the sidewalk while cars are zooming past me. And while I like the front swivel wheel, it's not sturdy. This other "super" stroller has two front swivel wheels, making it more sturdy. It also has an easily adapted infant carseat holder. Just in case..... :)

Tonight I'm going to a Braves game with my hubby and two friends. My plan is to eat before I got and maybe have a light beer or something while I'm there. NO EATING! I promise. I'm 100% accountable for NOT EATING there. There are no healthy options and I'm sick of blowing my flex on stupid food I don't even really like. :)