And Then There Were None

Back from the mountains with not one picture to prove I was there.  I survived the car ride with the kids without any major meltdown from myself or the kids.  (Score)  I had dreams of going to parks, walking through creeks, feeding ducks, horses, etc.  Then it snowed 3 inches.  


And I was pissed enough about it that I didn't take pictures.  


It was in the upper 20's to lower 30's the whole time and snowing or raining.  Yuck.  I got in zero, zilch, nada workouts.  Not one.  I'm a complete wimp about exercising outdoors in cold weather.  And I didn't have any of my indoor stuff that I use here at home.  I hate being cold.  Hate, hate, hate it.  You know how they say the hardest part of getting out there and working out is putting your shoes on and getting out the door?  Not so.  I've done that before and it was so cold I ran back to my house.  In fact, I've run my fastest mile when running back to my house-fleeing the workout. 


So this weekend was filled with 24/7 HGTV.  Holmes on Homes, Househunters, International Househunters, Property Virgins, Divine Design, and Designed to Sell.  It's how my mom and I bond.  (you take what you can get) Yes, I went to the Great Outdoors to sit in the Great Room Indoors and watch TV.  The good news is that my mom took the other kids back with her to her house (The mountain house is just her vacation home....  I know.)  So the kids should get some fun filled, sunny days outdoors at my mom's house that is set on a huge lot with lots outside play time.  And I get a break and only have one kid.  

ONE KID!  It's like a dream vacation!  I can see it now: waking up, going to starbucks, playing some blocks, changing a diaper maybe, and then....what for it.....NAP TIME!  


So this week I have no excuses.  I have ample time to get some good, sweaty stuff in (that's what she said) and burn some calories.  


I'm reading a book called "The End of Overeating" by David A. Kessler, MD.  Really enjoying it.  Learning a lot. Will share more on that later.


I'm also reading "So Long, Insecurity" by Beth Moore.  Good, good stuff.  Solid.  These days I'm all about dealing with issues deep down to the root.  Not a fan of putting a bandage on a big, gaping wound.  Learned my lesson- definitely worth dealing with your junk.  Like: what motivates to have the goals you have?  Are they healthy goals?  


Another book my friend told me about and is on hold at the library is : "Women, Food and God" by Geneen Roth.  Sounds right up my alley.  :)


I'm also reading an Agatha Christie book called And Then There Were None.  About a bunch of people that were invited to an island by a mystery host.  Then they all get murdered, one by one.  That settles it, I'm never going to an island if someone mysteriously invites me.  No way.  


That has nothing to do with this post.  But maybe I'll work it into the title.   


Okay-so off to throw a load in the wash.  Settle myself back into homeland.  Missed my husband.  Looking forward to some movie nights with him this week.  With cheese and crackers.  Because, without fail, he gets snacky at night and that's his snack of choice. 






Jen

So I'm having a weird day. I got on the scale this morning and it said 167. That really bummed me out because I was 165 at my meeting on Monday (5 days ago). I've stayed within my point range so I'm kinda upset that I've appeared to gain. Now, granted, I never count my weight officially until weigh in- so I'm not "counting" it yet- but still bummed. The only thing I can think of is that I saved my Weekly Allowance points to "blow" on a BLT sandwich and french fries at OK Cafe. That was last night. Maybe it just hit me wrong.

Anyway, those two pounds sent me back into my old thinking. I looked the mirror and felt "fatter." Even though I'm comfortably wearing jeans that were way too tight a month ago, I seemed to look bigger. I know it's all in my head. I think I'm just having some momentary motivation loss. I haven't gone over my points, just seem to be reaching for easy foods instead of what's nutritious. I know I haven't been drinking enough water. I've had a very busy, exhausting week. Me and the kids have sinus colds, aren't sleeping well and just grumpy. So maybe that's it. I dunno. I just need to get it out on this blog. If I keep it in my head- I'm liable to get too down and then binge. And I refuse to go back to that place. One thing I'm learning is that this journey does not come without your normal stumbling blocks. It's just a matter of how you handle them. So- I want to handle this differently and talk about it -rather than pretend everything is going great- ya know? Before I probably would have said: " I need a break. I'll just eat what I want this weekend and then start back Monday." Monday would turn into Tuesday. Tuesday would blend into another week. And so on. That way doesn't work. As much as I'd rationalize it. So- it's plan A, A, A. Stick to the original plan and never give up.

I will do this!