Ran 3 miles!

And I felt okay through most of it! My left hip is sort of wony though. It felt bad at first and then warmed up. But now it's raging (2 hours post run). But I don't care. At least I can say I ran 3 miles pregnant, right? I'll do some hip stretches tonight and maybe put a rice sock on my lower back. Pregnancy leaves my joints all loosely goosey. Maybe I should include a yoga session once a week.....

It's 8pm and I'm about ready to fall dead asleep. But I've got some lady friends coming over for some girl time and I equally want to do that too. Must....make it.....through......

Did I say I may give Core a try? Yes, once again, I'm going to try Core. It's basically in line with what my midwife recommended eating so hey...

We've got a heartbeat....

Had my first prenatal appointment today. Heard peanut's heartbeat. Nice and strong. Made my day! My due date is now estimated to be Dec 4th. So I'm roughly 8 weeks, 4 days.

My midwife and I talked lot about my previous pregnancies and births. I talked with her about my weight gains and then eventual weight loss after Amelia. She seemed to think I can easily gain 30-35 lbs and limit it to that. That encouraged me. I guess there's something in me that thinks if you gained 50 + lbs with each pregnancy that you're just genetically predisposed to gain it again with each one. I weighed in at 145 lbs. I told her I was 140 when I peed on that stick so that means I gained 5 lbs. She said that's okay-first trimester usually renders junk food which she understand. She said she'd consider my "start weight" at 145. My "rules" are to eat protein with every meal. Include lots of fresh fruits and veggies. No processed junk. And only water or milk as my beverage. No liquids with calories. Does that mean I can still get my decaf mocha?????? I think so....


I did 30 mins on the elliptical yesterday. I showed up at the YMCA for what I thought was the Body Sculpting class at 4:30. It ended up being a belly dancing class. The Body Sculpt was at 5:30pm. I was not up for belly dancing so I headed to the gym and hopped on the machine. Worked my inner thighs like mad! Today I have high hopes of going to Total Body. I need some cardio/strength mix.

Riding the Old Wave

I feel like I'm just on this pregnancy ride and I basically have to ride it out until I can get my head above water. I swear, everyday I plan to eat better. And every day my meals and snacks get progressively worse as the day goes on. As does my morning sickness. By dinner time I have the most bizarre feeling of nausea and hunger. But the only thing I can even think about putting in my mouth is always the most unhealthy option available. What is it about the first trimester?? I *think* I'm at 144 lbs. So, there ya go. I guess you can say I broke out the scale again. The good news is that about half way through a meal I become ill and can't finish. So the unhealthy options are only being eaten in half portions. That's good right?

*sigh*

I took Fischer this afternoon to Trader Joes and was determined to get some healthier, quick grab options. It's hard to go grocery shopping when you feel sick. Nothing is appealing and you just want to stop looking at food. But I forced myself to put my big girl pants on and just get it done. I got some steel cut oatmeal, granola bars, edemame, fruit, cheese, pre-packaged meals for lunch time, frozen stuff and lots of veggies. I HAVE to snap out of this fog and get some whole foods in me. I guess all I can do is keep trying. I'll be 9 weeks this week so hopefully just a few more weeks of this fog and I'll be back to my old self, but with a gut.

I'm going to take Amelia tomorrow to the Ymca and get a class in. Not sure what yet. I've been itching to run lately. I ran 3 miles last week (with some walking mixed in). And then I ran 1 mile on the treadmill before a Sculpt Class too. It felt fine. So I think I'm going to revisit a more frequent cardio workout this week. Taking that one week off for morning sickness has really slowed my momentum.

Good Outdoors...

Went to a river trail today with the kids. Walked the whole 3 mile trail. Felt good! Kids loved it! We got to see a snake swim in the water over a bridge. :)

I'm pooped. I stopped by Taco Bell (mistake #1) and ordered 5 tacos and a mexican pizza (mistake #2) for me and the kids. I ate two tacos and 1/2 the pizza. Ahem..... Well, there's 15 pts. I tracked them and used some flex. Next time I'll try Subway.

Hoping to walk again tomorrow. My goal is to get exercise back into my regime this week. :)

More later!

It's been a whirlwind weekend of birthday festivities for my baby girl. She had so much fun at her Princess Birthday Party. She got a massive stash of dress up gear and has been talking about "peensesses" ever since.

I'm still in that nausea "fog." I had a brief lifting of it this morning. I felt great until 2 pm. In fact, I felt so great I got a little worried. :) But sure enough, it kicked in! But while I was feeling well I ate an apple and a salad. LOL I hate the idea of veggies or fruit right now, so I just scarfed it down quickly before I felt sick!

I've got my Doula dinner tonight. I'm looking forward to it. I haven't gotten together with them in a while. It's a cookout with baked beans. That's about all you have to say and I'm sold.

Here's my tracker so far. I'm CRAVING like a mad woman and chocolate milkshake. I have some chocolate frozen yogurt. I may make a lighter version to satisfy my craving.

Breakfast:
Jimmy Dean Lite Breakfast Sandwich: 4 pts
Apple: 1 pts

Lunch:
Chicken Noodle Soup: 3 pts
Salad with Lite Italian: 1 pts
Lots of crackers: 5 pts

Snack:
Milkshake (lite version): 4 pts

Dinner:
Cookout with BAKED BEANS!

Zofran= sanity

I cannot tell you what a lifesaver Zofran is. It's an anti-nausea medication and it works! I've been really, really sick for 5 days now. I just took a Zofran (thanks to my friend who had hers left over from her pregnancy) a hour ago and I feel like human again. Yesterday was a good day and a bad day. A good day in the sense that we got our new minivan. My husband took our wagon up to a dealership and lied to me and said they offered too little. Little did I know he was buying me my new van! He surprise me and I'm just over the moon.

The bad part was my on going nausea. I'm sure it gets a bit old listening to someone complain about morning sickness. I have many friends that have or are struggling to get pregnant. So let me say that when I'm complaining, I'm doing so in a very "bloggy" type way. My general outlook is not one of me being "cursed" or "oh poor Jen." It's just my experience at the moment. And I will say the nausea took away my fear of miscarriage that I was struggling with- so for that I'm so grateful. And yes I'm grateful to be able to have this peanut in me growing. :) BUT, being in the midst of nausea is all consuming. And that's where I was (well, up to an hour ago). And the weird part is that I crave total shit! I just want fried food, coke, chips, JUNK. It's the only thing I can stomach. And my stomach was growing quite rapidly. The last week has been a shift of eating wisely to eating frantically and poorly. Not to mention the fact that I have not worked out in a full week. I cannot remember the last time I did that.

So I woke up today (after feeling depressed at how extremely I had abandoned my healthy eating) and decided I was going to draw a line in the sand. I was not going to do this to myself again. Sure, I can lose the weight while nursing. But do I really want to feed my body this JUNK while I"m growing a baby? No. I was not going to let the sickness cause me to throw in the towel. I can't. After all, this blog is titled: "Quitting is Not an Option."

So here is what I had today so far. My mom is coming in town tonight so I can plan dinner with that. I could get a Lean Cuisine lasagna (the big kind) and make that. Yep, that's what I'll do. With garlic bread and salad. Easy!

Breakfast:
WW muffin:3 pt

Snack:
Mocha: 3 pts

Lunch:
Lean Cuisine pizza : 6 pts
Salad with Ceasar: 2 pts
Littel mac'n cheese: 2 pts

Snack:
Apple

Dinner:
Lasagna: 6 pts
Salad w/ ff dressing: 0 pts

Total: 22 points


And as much as I don't like packaged foods....for now I think that's about all I can do. I'm going to try and pair it with fresh salads and fruit though. And once I'm up for cooking again, I"ll be making fresher meals. But for now, this is my plan. I'm hoping that the zofran will enable me to get back into my workouts. I may go to a body sculpt this after noon if I'm up for it. Or a walk...

Coping....

I'm sort of in survival mode here. In fact, I'm only writing at the moment because I actually don't feel sick at this exact moment in time. I'm in bed and already took my B6 vitamin and 1/2 a tab of Unisom. Praying that helps me feel better.

I was terribly spoiled with the other pregnancies. I never experienced this kind of sickness. I don't recommend it. The weird thing is that I have to eat because I feel hungry. But then 2 mins after I'm done with my meal I'm feeling sick again. My food choices have been odd and probably not the best. But like I said, I'm in survival mode.

Here's my lovely mix of foods today:

WW's muffin
Cookie
1/2 Mocha
1 McDonald's Chicken Ranch wrap
1 Small Fry
1 sleeve Saltienes
4 grahm crackers
2 chicken tacos

Lots of gingerale and water...

Back in control

I woke up this morning and wanted to hurl if I even thought too much about peanut butter and jelly. Yesterday I couldn't get enough and today I'm disgusted by it. Trying to ignore or just fight off the sick feeling. It's creeping in at random moments. This pregnancy thing is all coming back to me...

Today I've made healthy choices so far. Amelia woke up extra early (6:30am) and I made waffles. I used the word "made" loosely, as all I did was toast the frozen Kashi Waffles. We played and then Fischer's ride to school came. Amelia and I headed off to Starbucks and then the Library. We got some good books and swung by Chick-fil-A on the way home. It was soooooooo tempting to get a chick-fil-a sandwich with fries. I mean REALLY tempting. But instead I got a Southwest Chargrilled salad and a diet lemonade. And it was darn good! I allowed myself to have 2 of Amelia's fries and I was satisfied. Not bingeing for me!!

We're going out to eat with some friends tonight (kid free!) and I need to make a plan. It's at the same place we ate at a while back. Great food! Lots of choices. I'm thinking about the shrimp boil plate. We'll see. I know myself better than to actually log it here. If I write it down, then I'm bound to change my mind. :)

I'm just thrilled I don't have to cook. Cooking sort of makes me want to puke.

Here's the official trackers so far:

Breakfast:
2 Kashi Waffles with ICBINB and SF Syrup: 3 pts

Snack:
1/2 an Alternative Bagel and 1 pt cream cheese: 2 pts
Mocha: 3 pts

Lunch:
Southwest Chargrilled Chicken Salad (with tortilla strips): 6 pts
Light Italian: 1 pt

15 used so far
9 Left
35 Flex remain

The cravings have hit full force...

Ed let me sleep in until 10am! It felt soooooooo good. It just doesn't get better than that folks! I woke up for the first time in this pregnancy famished. I quickly got ready for church (Ed already had the kids ready- Thank God!) and ran downstairs to eat. Then we were off!

I was fine until halfway through the service. I started getting jittery and had that "empty" feeling. Left the protein out of breakfast. I guess an Alternative Bagel with 1 pt WW's cream cheese just didn't cut it. By the time we got home I was feeling ill. I devoured 2 pieces of a thin crust veggie pizza and still felt absolutely famished. So I had a bowl of Special K with skim milk. Okay....that hit the spot. 18 pts put away like a pro!

I'm just getting started....



After my lunch digested, I was jonesin' again. I had experienced some icky morning sickness, but felt like I needed to eat. I craved a milk shake. I NEVER crave milk shakes! I blended a banana and some chocolate frozen yogurt and it was the best thing evah! Another 4 pts....

Then came the PB&J's......This, my friends, is where I went ape shit. I had taken a nap and woke up hungry. I couldn't stomach cooking anything or eating any meat or veggies. I went straight for the peanut butter. Made one sandwich. Ate it. Made another sandwich. Ate it. Made ANOTHER half sandwich. Ate it. Granted, I did share some of that with Amelia, but still... I was like a crack addict wanting more and more...

Needless to say, I'm glad today is over. I feel yucky and my belly is even more so poking out. I don't plan to repeat the PB&J incident, but I think I'll keep the milkshake. It was darn good for 4 pts. And I get a banana in there! That's justified, right?

Oy!

Coming to terms...

Last scale reading: 142.6 lbs

I don't know what my body is doing but I have fluctuated all over the place the last week. My belly has popped. I'm so not kidding. POPPED! Wednesday night I felt so bloated and icky and I made the mistake of getting on the scale. 146.3! I nearly fell over. It made me feel down the rest of the week. Of course my body adjusted and my weight went back down, but it just slimmed me....

So, I've made the decision to rid myself of the scale. I fully believe in daily weigh ins when you're trying lose or maintain your weight. For me, it was encouraging and kept me focused. I was never obsessive and it was a positive tool for helping me stay OP. But pregnancy is just weird. There's no exact science to it and I'm finding myself becoming obsessed with numbers, which is not healthy. A few good friends have talked sense into me and convinced me that my body will do what it's going to do. All I can do is eat healthy and stay active and the rest is God's design.

This week I worked out 5 days in a row! And I felt great. I did water aerobics 3 days, Total Body 1 day and a step class one day. I think that's the perfect combo. 2 more intense days and then 3 days of lower impact. I'm also going to start walking after dinner with the kids. It's so pretty out at night and still light outside after dinner. My rough goal is to be active 5 days out of 7.

I've found my ideal balance to be 24 points. I was gaining too rapidly with 28 pts. 24 seems to work. I eat that, plus APs, plus Flex. I also eat all my Flex.

It's Saturday and I've sorted my laundry and I have a total of 10 piles to wash. Dang it's been a while....

I just took some pics this morning. I tend to get bigger as the day goes on. I'm almost 7 weeks according to my last monthly period. Though I estimate I'm only 6 weeks since my ovulation day is later than most women. I think I'll embrace the earlier date for now so at least I feel justified in showing somewhat. :)

143.2 lbs

Ugh. That's what I saw this morning. That and I'm so bloated and my belly has popped. Yes, popped. At only 6 weeks. *eyeroll* This is so ....me. Anyway, I have a feeling this is a result of some salty foods consumed yesterday. I hope...

I woke up today and went to the Deep Water class again. I brought Monica and Candace with me this time. :) Good work out. Probably 3 APs earned.

Here's my tracker so far:

Breakfast:
WW's Muffin: 3 pts

Snack:
Mocha: 3 pts
1 slice cinnamon toast: 2 pts

Lunch:
Probably a Quesadilla with chicken, mozz cheese and spinach.
20 oz of water (need to hydrate!)

Dinner:
Don't know yet....

Deep Water...

I went to a water aerobics class called Deep Water today. I wasn't really intimidated at all about it, other than having not ideally touched up my "kudzu." I had "touched" it up a couple days ago, but we all know what kudzu can do in a matter of days....

Ahem...

Well I showed up and thought: "This is going to be easy!" There were only two of us there under the age of 60. The instructor was late 60's I believe. I hopped in the pool and just started treading. The instructor was so sweet and gave me the run down on all the moves before we started. She said I'd need a noodle to wear b/w my legs since I've not done this before. I took it and planned to abandon it eventually. Most of the women didn't use one. I thought: "Sweetie, I do Heat. I do not need a stupid noodle!" We started.

I was served a piece of humble pie.

It was hard! Very challenging. Very good workout! Your in the water, so your cool and don't feel any sweat, but you're working hard!!! It felt really good. And now I'm tired. The class in MWF at 9am. That's perfect for me. I hope to make it at least two days a week. The other days I'll catch a Heat, Total Body or Body Sculpt class. It's nice to change things up.

So far today:

Breakfast:
Lender's Whole Wheat Bagel: 3 pts
WW 1 pt cream cheese serving: 1 pt

Snack:
Mocha: 3 pts

Lunch:
Whole Wheat Fettucine with roasted peppers and feta sauce (homemade!): 5 pts
Salad with romaine, artichokes and tomatoes with pesto vinegarette.: 3 pts
Brussle sprouts: 0 pts
1 Slice whole wheat sourdough bread: 2 pts


I'm thawing a whole chicken out tonight for dinner. I'll probably roast it with some veggies and salad.

Oh! Morning scale reading: 140.8

5 Weeks.....

Just for fun...Here's a comparison shot of me today and me about 6 months (yes, only 6 months) pregnant with Amelia. I probably weighed about 180 ish. And as I've said- my goal for this pregnancy is 165 lbs. 170 lbs at the max. I hope that at 9 months I look like I do in this 6 month pic. That would be ideal. And just for good ole fun I threw in a pic of me at 9 months (with weeks left). *sigh*

Moving and Grooving...

Despite a week of fitful sleep (this sinus/cold/allergy thing is overstaying its welcome), I got my butt out of bed and into workout clothes! All I wanted to do was sit in my PJs until 11am or so, sipping coffee and reading my book. But who am I kidding? That wouldn't happen anyway with my kids. So if I'm up, I'm might as well burn some calories. Fischer went to school and Amelia and I went to the ymca.

I showed up early for a Body Sculpt class and I was shocked to see 40 women lined up to get into the studio. The class didn't start until 9:25 and it was 9:15. This was ridiculous. I thought about going on a machine, but we all know how much I hate machines.....HEAT! There's a 9:15 Heat class in the gym!! I didn't feel up for Heat, but I was not going to fight for a step and weight with these women so I headed downstairs to the gym. I was surprised that I actually kept up well. We finished the circuits with 4 mins of Fartlek's. These are jog/sprint drills. You're running the whole time, but when the instructor yells "Sprint!" you have to run as fast as you can and then slow down to a normal pace when she tells you. That just about kicked my butt. But it felt good. I'm glad I ended up in the Heat class.

We've had a busy week. I really can't fathom that it's already Friday. I felt like it was just Monday. In the busyness I did have one bad meal. Well, one GOOD meal- just too much of it! Our friends had us over for fish tacos and they were seriously the best fish tacos I have ever eaten. I had two. Which isn't bad, but you have to consider the amount of tortilla chips, cheese dip, guacamole and salsa I had before the tacos. Ugh. I felt stuffed. Not a good feeling. Because of this I made a deliberate point not to get on the scale this morning. :) I figured I'd give myself a day of good eating and exercise before I see the damage.

Here's my tracker:

Breakfast:
Whole Wheat Toasted Oat w/ skim: 3 pts
1 hardboiled egg: 2 pts

Snack:
Mocha: 3 pts

Lunch:
Taco Salad: 8 pts
Romaine, spinach, tomatoes, cucumbers, avacado, salsa, non fat yogurt, black beans and a few blue corn tortilla chips crumbled on top. Delish! So delish and filling that I couldn't finish it all.

Snack: some fruit (1-2 pts)

Dinner: I'm dethawing some Tilapia. I'll pair that with a veggie and maybe some whole wheat sourdough bread. 6-7 pts

Total: 24ish points. Room for some snacks.
APs: +4 pts
So really only 20 pts used/planned so far.

Birthing....

I was at a birth all day yesterday. 13 hour shift! I did my best on the eating front. I'm trying to stick mostly to Core foods, but still be aware of my points. I got on the scale and it was back down to 140.2 lbs. Yah!! My goal is to roughly maintain this weight through the first trimester.

Here's my tracker from Yesterday. Not perfect, but food choices were limited to hospital cafeteria.

Breakfast:
2 hardboiled eggs: 4 pts
mocha: 3 pts

Lunch:
1/2 a turkey sandwich on whole wheat (with cheese and mayo): 6 pts
Chips (ahem): 5 pts

Snack:
Kashi granola bar: 4 pts
apple: 0 pts ( I don't count apples)

Dinner:
Chicken Parmesean: 6 pts
Collard greens: 0 pts

Snack:
Breadstick: 3 pts

Total: 31 pts

I know I earned some APs. I was constantly on my feet doing massage all day and running back and forth.

Anyway, today is a much more controlled environment. :) I'm going to stick to core today. We do have dinner plans at a friend's house. They'll be making fish tacos!!! My job is to bring cheese dip and chips. But I'm going to have to be very limited on that. Chips and cheese dip are my downfall. LOL I'll probably make some guacamole too. I can put that on the tacos.

Here's my rough draft tracker for today:

Breakfast:
2 hardboiled eggs: 4 pts
apple: 1 pts

Snack:
FF popcorn: 3 pts for bag

Lunch: (don't know yet-probably a salad with chicken)

Dinner:
2 Fish Tacos: 10 pts
Chips: 3 pts
Guacamole: 3 pts

Projected total: 28 ish

Dude...

Kicked my own butt out the door and went to the Total Body class. It's not that it was particularly hard...but that I felt like I was moving in slow motion. And of course now I'm beat. I'm starting to bloat which is NOT fun. I feel like my tummy is sticking out and I'm only 5 weeks! Ugh. But it's all good. Just pushing through. Determined to eat healthy foods and stay active. That's all I can do. If my body chooses to metamorphisize (did I spell that right?) then so be at. As long as my weight doesn't sky rocket, I'm okay.

142.2!

Ack! Okay, maybe I need to reevaluated my points. I do not want to gain that rapidly. :) It's hard because I have a normal 2 lb weight fluctuation, but I think I've just been over doing it on eating. It also doesn't help that I've been stuck indoors since Sunday. No activity at all.

So, Let's say 25 pts a day. I don't want to lose, I want to maintain. I think that'll be enough.

I'm going to try and make it to Total Body today. My kids appear better and I feel much better. So we'll see. I need some activity. I'm craving it. I feel like a slug. I didn't end up going to the Y yesterday because Amelia was still coughing and I don't want to bring a sick kid into the Y. Then I though about getting on the treadmill and then just felt tired. Figured I'd listen to my body and take a break.

Unfortunately I had a big ass blueberry bagel this morning for breakfast. Then I smothered it in what I thought was ff cream cheese. Um, no. I was Light cream cheese. So 5 pts for the bagel, 2 pts for the cream cheese- that's a 7 pt breakfast. Ugh. Oh well. It'll keep me full for a while. I always struggled with getting truly full at breakfast. I'm usually starving by lunch. My meals tend to be: Breakfast at 8am. Lunch at 11am. And dinner at 4:45 ish. No joke! I'm an early eater. I might as well join the old farts at Picadilly. My neighbors make fun of me. "Jen, you're eating at 5pm and your kids are in bed by 7pm!" I can't help it, that's just our natural cycle.

Okay.....I'm off!