Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Living up to my words

Dang the last 24 hours have been chucked full of cardio and minimal sleep.  Did bootcamp yesterday, then had a softball game last night at 9pm.  It didn't get started until 9:30 and for some reason I thought it would be more fun than work. Um, no. Running, running, running.  I was drenched.  I finally got home at 11pm.  Then, because of my body being active that late- I was wired and could not fall asleep until 12am.  Then there is that whole man child thing....  

Every.  Hour.  

5:30am- alarm goes off.

Deep breaths.  

I had made up my mind I was going to ease up today and spend more time yelling and watching everyone than doing every thing they were doing.  My trusty co leader was there leading the pack, so I was slightly off the hook.  But then some how I ended up running with 25 lbs worth of weights in my arms.  I told everyone if I could run with these weights, then they had better be running (no walking).  That was HARD!  But I did it.  :)

Scale is looking good.  My mountain week damage is now officially behind me.  162 on the scale.  I'm so determined to see the 150's again.  Then I'll feel like I see the light at the end of the tunnel.  Shepherd is 6 months.  To be roughly 20 lbs from pre pregnancy weight at 6 months post partum is good. (Considering I gain more than 50 lbs with each pregnancy)  I always say it takes a full year to get it off.  Those hollywood celebrities that get back to pre pregnancy size in 6 weeks makes me want to slap someone.  It's just not at all normal.  

I'm feeling good.  Starting to feel normal again as far as my body goes.  My abs are going back in little by little- but they will always be the thorn in my side.  Rearing it's ugly head if I eat too much.   It's the first thing that shows.  I hate that.  But it is what it is.  I read another blog called Cranky Fitness that addressed belly fat.  I'm doing most of this stuff, but thought I'd pass this along.  


Jacoline said...

What's the thing with the manchild (I love this terminology of yours)? How come he doesn't sleep and just wants to eat? Is there someone you can get advice from? Here in Holland there are specially trained breastfeading ladies and child doctors who can advice on getting your child to sleep through the night (or at least better than your baby is doing...). I just feel sorry to hear about your sleepdeprived nights; shouldn't be necessary...
Here in Holland there are also specialists called "osteopathics", who gain excellent results on treating babies with sleep- and eatproblems. Sometimes there's a "hidden" damage from labour that causes such problems; osteopathics can find those damages.
I just hope you'll get back your nights soon!

Jen Gordon said...

Jacoline- I think Shep is not sleeping well out of habit. He had bad colic for the first three months. I held him 24/7. And now he's just still in that mode at night. Can't soothe himself back to sleep at all if he stirs away. I don't feed him everytime when he wakes- I just go in and insert a paci and goes back to sleep. But the interrupted sleep is catching up with me and I'm just ready to have a semi-normal night pattern.

I have heard of osteopaths. A friend of mine went to one for her back and was totally cured after years of pills, chiropractic, epidurals, etc. I didn't know they could help kids. My chiropractor adjusted Shep in the beginning, but I haven't been back. And frankly, I'm so tired of trying to find a "cure" for his sleeping. I think it might have to come to him fussying it out a bit. But I have to come to a place where I'm willing to do that.

Jacoline said...

Yeah, I understand your "willing to do that"; it's hard for a Mothern to let your baby fuss it out by himself. My experience with both of my kids is that it's exactly what they need, to learn how to get back to sleep by themselves...
Even after having 1 or 2 kids before; the same doubts and difficulties hit you with a new baby.
I'm sure you'll make it through; know that you're in my thoughts and prayers.

And to Shep: "Go sleep tight, babyboy: you can do it! That's the way to get rid of the child-part and become a man"

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