Today was nice. I took the kids to meet my dad for lunch at Roasters. Got roasted chicken breast, green beans and a sweet potato. I was good! Then.....I went to Trader Joes. Oh. My. God! I love that place. Coolest stuff ever! Love, love, love it. Really point friendly, creative, prepared meals. Anyway, Ed's at a hockey game tonight and I'm with the kids solo. Just got them bathed and Amelia to bed. Fischer is now watching Spongebob Squarepants... :)

Here's my tracker:

Breakfast:
Oatmeal: 2 pts
Apple: 1 pts

Lunch:
Chicken: 3 pts
Sweet Potatoe: 3 pts
green beans (with butter): 2 pts

Snack:
FF cottage cheese: 1 pt
Mango slices: 1 pt

Dinner:
Romaine (o pts) topped with:
1/4 cup black beans: 1 pt
A little chicken breast:2 pts
Asparagus: 0 pts
Tomatos: 0 pts
Cilantro dressing (Trader Joe's brand): 2 pts
Pita chips: 2 pts

I ran 3 miles right before dinner, so that gives me 3 APs

Total: 20 pts
Flex used: 0 pts
AP's earned: 3 pts

I think I'll have another snack later. I'll keep it under 5.

Meal Planning.....

I've decided to be a litte more proactive about planning my meals. That worked really well for me in the beginning of this journey, so I'm resurrecting that approach. We're eating in a lot more these days to save some cash, so this should be relatively easy to plan.

So, here's my tracker for today:

Breakfast:
PBJ= 3pts
Latte= 2pts

Lunch:
Kashi Meal= 4 pts
Roll: 1 pts

Snack:
Apple= 1pt
string cheese: 2 pts

Dinner:
Rotisserie "crockpot" chicken: 3pts
Wild rice: 3 pts
Spicy black beans: 2 pts

Snack:
WW muffin; 3 pts

Total: 23 pts


I plan to run 3 miles, so that will bring my points down to 21....I'll update with final points.

Okay, here's my tracker. We had a double date with some friends. The plan was to get wings at Buffalo's Cafe and then go bowling. Unfotunately the bowling place was packed with leagues. :( So we ended up going to a local bar and playing some pool. :) But I was good at dinner and ordered a salad that was actualy quite good! I have one of Ed's wings. :)

Daily Tracker: Tuesday March 27th

Breakfast:
Special K bar: 2 pts

Mid-Morning Snack:
PBJ=3 pts

Lunch:
French Onion Soup=2pts
1oz mozzerella cheese (part skim)= 2pts
2 rolls: 2pts
pretzels: 1 pts

Snack:
Orange: 1pt
Special K Bar: 2 pts

Dinner:
Fajita Salad: 10 pts
Sour Cream: 2 pts
1 wing: 2 pts
16 oz Newcastle on draft (heavenly)= 4 pts

After dinner drink:
Rum drink: 2 pts

Total points: 36 pts
Flex used: 14 pts
APs earned: 0 pts

So I had weigh in yeseterday and I was releived to find out I was only up 1.6lbs. Seriously folks, I thought it was at least 3 lbs. Phew!

I had a good, OP day yesterday and plan to do the same today. I'll report back with my tracker...

My Saturday started out with the best intentions and then by the time I got into bed last night I had had 5 pcs of pizza total yesterday. I ate it all day! I was on the go all day and I 100% grabbed that pizza with an emotional intent behind each bite. Feels yucky. In fact, this whole way of eating seems to be creeping up way more often than I'd like.

I'm stuck at 139-142 lbs and I can't break through. Well, I can, but I'm choosing not to by over eating and letting old habits dominate more. For some reason the resolve I had to lose this weight is slipping away. I hear it's really common for that to happen the last 5 lbs, but I still feel like I'm failing. For the first time I'm starting to let one bad meal turn into one bad day. Whereas before I'd just get right back to plan at the next meal. And then I caught myself actually considering not eating at all Sunday to "correct" the bad eating that's occurred this week. And we all know that's not the solution. I can't believe I even considered that.

Tomorrow is weigh in and I really don't want to see a gain, but I'm afraid it's too late. I have to forgive myself and move on. I've got to get in a good, solid week. I'm using my daily tracker less and less and that's not a good sign. I'm also grabbing "little bites" of the kid's food and it's adding up. This has got to stop. I know I'm not going to gain the weight back. I even thought about moving my goal weight to 140 lbs, but I think that would be a cop out. I can realistically get to 135 lbs. It's a reasonable weight for my height and it's totally attainable. It's just a matter of doing it. I think this might the be hardest part of the weight loss. I know I have what it takes to make it happen, I just have to find it deep inside.

My only goal for this next week is to write everything that goes into my mouth down on my daily tracker. And to write it as I eat it, not at the end of the day. I know I can do this, I just need to get back to what kept my OP in the beginning. I'm going to be honest with myself about the points I'm eating.

On a good note, I'm still running and really loving it. The last few runs I've had were really hard, which was new for me. Lately I had been feeling really good during my runs. But the last few have felt "heavy." Nonetheless, I've still laced up my shoes and hit the road, so that's good. Today is Sunday and I'm hoping to run at the river near me for a change in scenery. Maybe I'll do 6 miles....maybe just 3....we'll see.

Thanks for listening.

****UPDATE*****

I ran 6 miles! It was tough when I hit the 3 mile mark and thought: "Well, I could stop now but..." But I did it! Felt good. Especially after my crappy week.

Size 4! Yeah, that's right, size FOUR! I'm so thrilled. I went to The Gap last night with a friend because I had a feeling I might get into a 4 and I needed something to spur me on to goal. I got into a 4 in three different pairs of jeans! That makes me officially a 4, right? LOL








The past few days have been good, balanced days as far as eating goes. Sorry I haven't posted my daily trackers. I'll try to get them on as soon as I can.

Here's today's so far (dinner is up in the air).

Breakfast:
Special K bar= 2pts

Lunch:
Pita chips=4pts
Hummus=2pts
Carrots= 0pts
Grapes= 1 pt

Snack:
WW muffin= 3pts
Grapes= 1pt

Dinner: ? (9 pts worth of something)

I plan on running after Ed gets off of work. 3 miles baby!

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!

Today was a non tracking day as far as food is concerned. I had a birthday breakfast and tried my best to choose wisely. I was so full from breakfast that I didn't really eat all day long until 5 pm. Then I had a cheese sandwich. I spent most the day packing up books and clutter for our move next month. Everyone makes fun of me because I jump the gun on everything, but at least I get it done right? RIGHT! lol All that to say, I've been moving around all day and just trying to make the best of a day that got away from me point wise. Good news is that I didn't binge, just didn't track. I'm right back on it tomorrow!

Never made it to weigh in this week. But I'm not too worried because my scale has me with a good loss. I'll be sure to get back to my usual weigh in on Monday. We'll see what my official loss is...


Here's my "guess" Dailly Tracker:

Breakfast:
Scrambled egg whites
2 chicken sausage
2 biscuits
1 small bowl grits
coffee galore

Snack:
coffee

Dinner:
Cheese sandwich
pretzels

Water, water, water...

I forgot to post my daily tracker from yesterday:

Breakfast:
NF yogurt: 2 pts
granola: 3 pts

Lunch:
Carrots: 0 pts
Hummus: 2 pts
Chips: 3 pts

Snack:
Cocoa Via bar: 2 pts
Waldorf Salad: 5 pts (big bowl)

Dinner:
Turkey Sub from Subway: 6 pts
Baked Lays: 3 pts

Total: 26 pts
Flex used: 0 pts
Ap's earned: 4 pts

I ran 4 miles!!!

Pictures from my race!!!!

If you see a Girl Scout around, please smack her.

Ugh.... I went to visit my grandma today with the kids and while I love seeing her, I know I have to dodge offers of sweets all day long. I should have taken my points calculator, along with my daily tracker, but I forgot. Nonetheless, I'm posting my daily tracker so I can face the music. I ate every one of my flex points for the week and it's only Tuesday. How pitiful is that? But, on the upside, I can still have a successful week if I stay under my daily allowance. It doesn't have to be a disastrous week. :)

My main challenge will be a breakfast I'm going to on Saturday to the Flyn' Biscuit where they have these amazing biscuits and grits! So I'm going to have to really plan and earn some APs to have some good food.

Daily Tracker:

Breakfast:
Fiber One bar: 3 pts

Lunch:
Turkey and Cheese Sandwich: 4 pts
Lite Ruffles Chips:4 pts
4 baby sweet pickles: 2 pts
Waldorf Salad: 4 pts

Snack fest 2007:
4 Thin Mints: 3 pts
6 Samoas: 9 pts

Dinner:
Spaghetti with meat sauce: 5 pts
3 (yes THREE) pcs of garlic bread: 15 pts (if I had known it was 5 pts a slice I would have passed LOL)
salad: 3pts

Total:52 pts!!!!
Flex used: 32 pts
Aps earned: 0 pts

I ended up staying at my grandma's longer than I had planned and got home too late to run. Tomorrow I'm running during Amelia's nap!!! That's a promise!

Well, Ed had a hockey game tonight and I totally forgot about it, so I couldn't get to my meeting. :( But, I'll get one in tomorrow or Wednesday. I'm not worried about the results. I'm pretty confident I lost. :)

Didn't run today. Trying to rest my body. But I'll be back to running tomorrow! It's funny how it becomes addicting. I totally love it. lol NEVER, EVER thought I'd love running. :) I dropped Fischer off at school and then Amelia and I headed to the Farmer's market for some fresh fruit and veggies. I'm also hopelessly addicted to their hummus. I buy the biggest container they can measure out! YUM!We also had our inspection on our house today and all went well, so looks like I can officially start boxing up things! If I can make it through the next month, I think I can make it through anything. Moving sucks, but it's going to be worth it.

Here's my daily tracker:

Breakfast:
Weight Control Oatmeal: 2 pts

Lunch:
1/2 cup hummus: 2 pts
Crackers: 4pts
1 cup raspberries: 1 pts

Snack:
Grande SF, NF iced vanilla latte: 4pts
1/2 banana: 1 pts

Dinner:
Flatbread pizza: 2 pts
hummus: 2 pts
Crackers: 4 pts

Total: 22 pts

Finished my second 5K in 29:01!!!!!! It was a nice run. There was one subtle hill that seemed to go on and on, but I conquered it. I ran the whole time, no walk breaks! :)

I've been busy, but strictly OP the last few days. I've already started sketching out my tattoo that I'm getting when I reach goal! I'm so excited about it. I'll post pics when I actually get it. In the mean time I'll hold you all in suspense.

Today's agenda includes showering (LOL) and a visit to my in laws which will be nice and relaxing. The kids love their "Noni" and "Pops."

I'll post a race pic when they're uploaded!

Have a good Sunday!

139.8 lbs!!!!! That's what my scale said this morning. Granted, I had to get buck naked to get that reading, but still!!!! I cannot believe it! I haven't been in the 130s since HS.

I'm back to my old self! I've been devouted to staying OP the last few days and it's paid off. I've lost a lot of the water I retained from my lack of water drinking and my binge week. :) I've been running everyday and I'm feeling like I have a new "wave" of motivation. It's great.

And....I have a race this Sunday! My goal is to come in under 30:00. :)

Ok, as requested, I'm going to get dressed up here soon and update the blog with a pic. :)

I love her

This explains a lot.... (Guys, tmi- don't read)

So, time has been flying by and I was surprised by my monthly friend this morning. My first thought was: "Oh no! It's only been, like 2 weeks or something. This is weird..." Then I got my calendar out and realized it's been a month and I'm right on time! LOL So, at least the last week of wanting to eat my way to China may have had some sort of hormonal reasoning behind it. NOT that I'm making excuses! :)

Just wanted to share because I always want to share a bit more than I should. :)

And I'm up 3.8 lbs! I think the last 2 weeks came back with avengance tonight at weigh in. But, like I said in my last post, I'm choosing to forgive myself for the gain and move forward.

On the upside- I ran 6 miles today! I took my pug on my normal 3 mile run to a coffee shop and back and I dropped her off (she was having a hard time keeping up LOL) and just repeated it! It was nice. I have a 5k this Saturday. This is the 5k I registerd for 3 months ago when I set out to start running. Two friends are running it with me. It should be fun and FLAT! lol

Well here is my daily tracker:

Breakfast:
Weight Control Oatmeal: 2 pts
1/2 banana: 1pt

Lunch:
Lean pocket: 6 pts
Baby carrots: 0pts

Snack:
WW muffin: 3 pts

Early dinner:(I was hungry- from the run I think)
2 ff hot dogs: 2 pts
2 lite hot dog buns: 2 pts

Real Dinner:
Willy's Salad: 9pts

Dessert:
Ff, sf chocolate pudding: 1 pt

Total used: 26 pts
Ap's earned: 4 pts
Flex used: 0 pts!!!

I've been a bad, bad girl. I have 100% regressed into my old frame of mind. I felt myself slipping the last few weeks and now I sit here in "post stuff " state I feel yucky. Yesterday I had a very stressful day of cleaning and showing my house and then having to find something to do with the kids to keep them out of the house. I got the car and just fell into this "I need a fix" state. I drove straight to Dunkin Donuts and ate 2 chocolate glazed donuts. Then last night after I had been in bed for a while watching TV, I got up and ate a muffin. I wasn't even hungry and I was about to go to sleep. THEN, I started today well and then it slowly spun out of control. We had a family get together that involved 2 kinds of cake. Enough said. Tonight I came home and told Ed I wanted to be bad and get something really "bad" to get it out of my system. He complied and we got take out from this place nearby. I got a buffalo chicken sandwich with sweet potato fries, with blue cheese. Oh, and a coke. A REAL coke. I inhaled it like a drug addict would. It was good, but wasn't as good as I thought it would be. It never is...

Ironically my 12 week food tracking diary ended today. I start a new booklet tomorrow. Timing is everything. I preach and preach about having no more excuses and prioritizing staying OP throughout any and all life events, changes, etc. I think I let the stress of all this house selling/buying get in the way of goal. No more. I have not come this far to give in. I'm not a victum. I'm not going to be full of excuses of why I can't get to goal. I gave that up last June when I first joined and started this blog. I'm so happy with myself as I am. For the first time in years I feel comfortable in my own skin. I feel strong. I feel beautiful. I feel complete. Content. The last thing I want is to go back to where I was.

Good news is that I didn't get fat eating like this just one day. I got fat eating crappy every day for weeks, months and years on end. So, I'm choosing to stop this train now, instead of later. I'm choosing to let a day of healthy eating follow another day of healhty eating and so on.

I have 5 lbs to lose. I started this out with 50 lbs to lose. I must focus on how far I've come and move forward. It's not about perfection, it's about progress.

Tomorrow is Monday. I have weigh in. I'm choosing to face the music and except whatever the outcome is. I'm so proud of how far I've come. I'm forgiving myself for the last few weeks. I'm excited about getting to goal. It's closer than ever.

Thanks to all of you who lurk on my blog and also those that make yourself known to me via email or comments. Knowing you all are "here" helps keep me on my path.

Here's to picking yourself up and moving forward! Cheers!