Friday, August 01, 2008

Climbing on hands and knees back ON the wagon...

Folks, it has NOT been pretty the past week. Remember my post about Tuesday being "one of those days?" Well that day turned into Wednesday and Thursday. And now I'm sitting here feeling yucky. That's the truth about eating crap all the time, you feel awful. It's not even worth it.

Luckily I also made it to the grocery store. I loaded up on fresh food and OP staples. Today is the beginning of getting back on the wagon! I do not want to load on any more weight than I have to for this pregnancy. I remember how awful I felt when I tipped the scales at 230 lbs at 9 months pregnant. I could barely move. Right now I'm 168 lbs (deep breaths) and half way through. I have control over whether I pack it on. Now I just have to walk it out. It's weird how you feel so in control and then one day can throw you back into that spiral. And the truth is, I think those of us who struggle with our weight will always be susceptible to that downward spiral in any given moment. I think what protects us from going that route is a solid habit. Strengthening the discipline muscles. Being able to resist something and it not feel like the end of the world. One thing that works for me is when I tell myself that *that* particular food will be there tomorrow and I can have it if I want it. Because if I make that food the" forbidden fruit of the day," then I will want two tons of if here and NOW.

Good news is that I made it to a Step class yesterday. I'm really beginning to love Step. It's 60 minutes of cardio that leaves me feeling energized, despite how depleted I feel beforehand. I'm going to the Y again today to walk on the treadmill. I normally HATE going to gym just to walk on the treadmill. I think that's what make people pay gym memberships and never go. It's boring. I'm huge class fan. But today there are no classes I can take (can you imagine a pregnancy woman doing pilates?), so I'm going to get some cardio in without having to deal with the heat outside.

Here's my tracker:
***updated from the course of the day***

Breakfast:
3 Kashi Go Lean waffles: 4 pts
Syrup: 2 pts
Butter: 1 pt (out of ICBINB)
1/2 banana: 1 pt

Snack:
Mocha: 3 pts

Lunch:
Chicken sandwich on french bread with cheese, raw spinach and lite mayo: 8 pts

Snack:
White peach: 1 pt
Another peach LOL: 1 pt

Dinner:
Whole Wheat Spaghetti with ground chicken and vodka sauce: 8 pts
Ceasar salad with croutons: 3 pts
2 slices garlic bread: 5 pts (it had buttah)

APs:
3 miles on Treadmill: +3 pts

Total: 37 pt minus 3 APs=34 pts

9 comments:

Angie said...

Hi,
I love your blog, it's so inspirational! I added it to my favorites. I do WW too!
I know what your feeling, it seems if I'm OP I do really well and if I'm not then it all goes downhill.
Good luck today!
Angie
(ldbugmommy from cam)

Anonymous said...

I am also pregnant...37weeks pregnant. I found your blog through the WW boards. I don't understand why you are only eating approximately 1200 calories a day. That's how much I ate when I was dieting. No, I eat closer to 2000 calories per day and I have only gained 21 pounds this entire pregnancy. Do you think you are eating enough calories to nurture a baby? I know you don't want to gain a bunch of weight but I think you are a little obsessed. You should be worrying more about your baby's nutritional needs. To tell you the truth, your blog creeps me out and makes me worry for the health of your baby! You shouldn't be dieting and only eating 1200 calories a day!!!

Jen Gordon said...

Anonymous,

My tracker post for today was my "plan." It also subtracted my APs I earned. I normally eat 30-32 pts per day. All my flex, all my APs.

I'm 22 weeks along and have gained 25 lbs. Do you really think I'm malnourishing my child?

As far as the creepy comment- I'm not sure what creeps you out. I eat whole foods, plenty of calories per my OB and I'm gaining appropriately.

What's the problem?

Anonymous said...

Jen, you're beautiful and smart and inspirational... Don't let the naysayers get to you!

(c: Teresa (mrdc2000)

brossettelewis said...

Your totally malnourishing your baby by eating chicken, spaghetti, & salad. Where's the ice cream and fried chicken?

I sense a hint of jealousy in anonymous. Why can you have self discipline and not her?

Jen Gordon said...

Maybe I should have posted the Chick-fil-A milkshake I had the other day........LOL

Stacey said...

some people are nitwits..

you are awesome and an inspiration to me..

skrew the naysayers:)

gwen said...

Oh my gosh, Jenn, that anonymous comment was ridiculous. I am a total stranger but I can tell that you are a wonderful mother who would never "malnourish" a child! haha Don't even listen to that...

Lindsey Elizabeth Burke said...

Yes, the cookie dough bucket we were discussing yesterday is TOTALLY malnourishing the babe ;) I wonder she would say to my weight gain...ugh. I kind of want to say bad words at anonymous, but will refrain :)

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