Climbing on hands and knees back ON the wagon...

Folks, it has NOT been pretty the past week. Remember my post about Tuesday being "one of those days?" Well that day turned into Wednesday and Thursday. And now I'm sitting here feeling yucky. That's the truth about eating crap all the time, you feel awful. It's not even worth it.

Luckily I also made it to the grocery store. I loaded up on fresh food and OP staples. Today is the beginning of getting back on the wagon! I do not want to load on any more weight than I have to for this pregnancy. I remember how awful I felt when I tipped the scales at 230 lbs at 9 months pregnant. I could barely move. Right now I'm 168 lbs (deep breaths) and half way through. I have control over whether I pack it on. Now I just have to walk it out. It's weird how you feel so in control and then one day can throw you back into that spiral. And the truth is, I think those of us who struggle with our weight will always be susceptible to that downward spiral in any given moment. I think what protects us from going that route is a solid habit. Strengthening the discipline muscles. Being able to resist something and it not feel like the end of the world. One thing that works for me is when I tell myself that *that* particular food will be there tomorrow and I can have it if I want it. Because if I make that food the" forbidden fruit of the day," then I will want two tons of if here and NOW.

Good news is that I made it to a Step class yesterday. I'm really beginning to love Step. It's 60 minutes of cardio that leaves me feeling energized, despite how depleted I feel beforehand. I'm going to the Y again today to walk on the treadmill. I normally HATE going to gym just to walk on the treadmill. I think that's what make people pay gym memberships and never go. It's boring. I'm huge class fan. But today there are no classes I can take (can you imagine a pregnancy woman doing pilates?), so I'm going to get some cardio in without having to deal with the heat outside.

Here's my tracker:
***updated from the course of the day***

Breakfast:
3 Kashi Go Lean waffles: 4 pts
Syrup: 2 pts
Butter: 1 pt (out of ICBINB)
1/2 banana: 1 pt

Snack:
Mocha: 3 pts

Lunch:
Chicken sandwich on french bread with cheese, raw spinach and lite mayo: 8 pts

Snack:
White peach: 1 pt
Another peach LOL: 1 pt

Dinner:
Whole Wheat Spaghetti with ground chicken and vodka sauce: 8 pts
Ceasar salad with croutons: 3 pts
2 slices garlic bread: 5 pts (it had buttah)

APs:
3 miles on Treadmill: +3 pts

Total: 37 pt minus 3 APs=34 pts