Ever have those days where you do great and then out of nowhere you inhale points? My discipline muscle is weak. I think I just gave in too much in pregnancy and immediate postpartum just for comfort. Which, we all know is not what food gives us. Well, maybe initially and then we feel crappy and yuck.
But none of this really matters because excuses are excuses. The bottom line is that I can choose to half ass my way through this diet and it will take twice as long to lose this weight OR I can just pull it together and get it done! I'm going for the latter. I do not want to feel like I feel at this weight. Just not "me." Ya know? I don't want to have to have this "I just had a baby pooch" when my baby is 4 months. I mean, I have the loose skin- that's enough for me.
And really I'd like to lose weight so I don't have moments like these anymore.... I went to Target the other day and saw a friend from high school a couple aisles down. I avoided him like the plague. I had the baby in the sling and just tried to stay out of the main aisle. He ended up seeing me and walking right towards me. I tried to sort of keep walking like I didn't see him and then he said my name. Ugh. I HATE seeing people when I'm fat. And I just saw him (and all my other high school friends I haven't seen in years) at our 10 year reunion two years ago. And if you follow my blog you know that one of my main motivations for losing the weight was to be in the best shape for my 10 year reunion. And I was! So, needless to say, I was a bit embarrassed to see him. But, in my defense I had a 6 week old baby in a sling. :) And I'm sure he didn't think twice about it. But still...
These are the reason why being over weight is just not worth it. Constantly thinking about it and feeling so insecure when you see people from your past. It's just not worth the pieces of cake or the hot wings or the fries. Ya know?
So...here I am on a Sunday evening preparing myself for this week. I'm thankful my baby is sleeping better and I feel a bit more rested on a daily basis. This all helps healthy weight loss. Tomorrow there is a Body Sculpt class at 5:30pm at the YMCA. We'll see how the day unfolds and if I can get there. I hope I can. I'm so excited about a class. I plan to get out and walk in the morning with Shepherd to get in some cardio. Then if I get to go to the class that'll be icing on the cake.
Okay...here's to picking myself back up and moving forward.