I've decided to stop dieting.
Now, before you scream "blasphemy!" and beat me into submission, let me say that dieting has just not been working for me. I'm not going to stop losing weight, just stop dieting.
I've really been doing some soul searching the last few days. Learning why I'm so inclined to overeat. Why I'm so food obsessed. Why food is the "answer" to me. And I realized that food is not my enemy. The way I relate to food is the issue. It's not the food that needs to change, it's me. I've decided that it's time I start listening to my body again. I tapped into that so well with my pregnancy and birth, so why not let that guide me in this weight loss? I've come to the realization that just because I was successful with WW's after I gave birth to Amelia doesn't mean it's the only tool I can use. And to be quite honest, right now I cannot think about another point.
So, I've only got a few rules:
- Eat only when I'm physically hungry and stop when I'm full.
- Eat whatever I'm craving.
Day two on this and I'm down 2 lbs. That includes tacos, bake bre, salad with REAL dressing, loaded baked potato, coffee cake, mochas, sauteed veggies with olive oil and salt, sour cream, butter, you name it. I just can't buy another fat free product right now. Maybe I will in the future, but for now I want to eat what I like. Now, I'm not saying I'm going to live on junk food- I actually do like healthy food- but what's a girl gotta do to get some real cheese up in here? And there is a time and place where a girl needs to have some chocolate too.
So this is where I'm at. I'm actually quite excited and happy about it. I feel free. I've stopped in the middle of several meals the last few days and had an entire half of my plate still full. But I was full, so I didn't eat it. Sometimes that meant quickly putting the plate down on the floor for my pug to eat before I changed my mind (she can get fat, she likes it that way) and sometimes I just put my fork down and exhibited self discipline. At any rate- I went totally off my body's cues. It was quite a thrill!
I have to say I do enjoy this! I can't lie- I was reminded of all this from a book I read years ago called "The Weigh Down Diet." All she basically says is that God made your body the way He did and it will tell you what to do. And "refraining from over indulgence is something all believers should do." Good point. So that's what I'm doing. I'm making friends with food again and promising not to abuse it. I hereby declare to never buy chocolate flavored styrofoam and ff cheese again.
I'm relearning how to eat and not being obsessed with what I eat.
Anyway, I still plan to post my tracker and activity. Just because I like to.
Here's what I had today:
Breakfast: 2 hardboiled eggs, 1 mocha
Lunch: 1/2 a turkey sandwich with gouda cheese on a croissant, spring salad with vineagarette.
Snack: mocha, reduced fat coffee cake (I just like the RF version at starbucks)
Dinner:5 mini Trader Joe's chicken tacos with sour cream and peach salsa
Snack:1 piece of 7 grain bread with naturally more peanut butter and honey on top
Water, water, water
I also walked 4 miles this morning with the baby.